So sorry to see this post.
Lost my son this past March not long after he and I successfully drew elk tags in Wyoming.
The pain is still overwelming.
All must greive in their way and in their time.
Life will never be as good as it could have been with our loved ones, but life is still full of happiness and death is a hard part of the journey.
My wife and I pray for your pain too strengthen your soul ,to ease the hard times to come, and to help see and remember the good and wonder of the world.
God Bless.